i have no words for how bad i feel...

[wheeloftime13]

so, last year was my first year at the high school even though I was a sophomore (id been homeschooled for freshman year) and for the first semester, I had P.E. with a group of girls who I liked to play knock out (basketball) with... and we played basically every day, but I didn't hang out with them other than in p.e. even though I considered them my friends (im a loner and because of where I live, I don't hang out with anybody outside school unless they live on base with me) I saw them in school once the semester was over, and waved when I saw them so when school started up again this year, I saw one of the girls in my Spanish class and another in the Library at lunch with another one of my friends (she lived on base, but I didn't talk to her much since she moved off base) then I saw a third walking down the Math hallway when heading to the buses.... but I never saw the last one... and at the beginning of the school year, we had a memorial/assembly for a student who had died over the summer in a horrific car accident, and oddly enough, they had the same name...I thought nothing of it because it was a pretty common name, and I never learned her last name... I did find it odd that I never saw her again, but I assumed that she moved... until tonight when I was going through one of the girl's Instagram photos and saw a collage of them together saying that she really missed her... and after that, I kinda figured it out, but I was hoping that I was wrong and that she'd moved, so I went on facebook and looked her up.... I found a memorial on her facebook page, and I felt horrible that it took me a little over 4 months for me to find out what happened when I spent enough time with her or talking to her (we had more than 10 mutual friends on facebook, and not once did I try to talk or find out where she went) so needless to say that I feel just awful and I honestly don't know how im going to feel better after I spent five months playing with the girl 5 days a week and it took me nearly that long to find out that she had died....

[Davrick]

*hugs*  I'm so sorry!  If you ever want to talk about things message me on fb or something.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

I'm sorry, time. *hugs*

 

it's very sad but please know you did no wrong.

[Basel Gill]

I'm sorry about the loss of your friend, Time. *hug* You have nothing to blame yourself over here.

[Aiel Heart]

*Hugs tight*

[WolfbrotherKronos]

*hugs Time*

[Hayl3y]

I understand how u must feel but you can't blame yourself for missing what happened.

*hugs*

[Niniel]

I´m so sorry, Time. As the others said, you did nothing wrong though.

 

*hugs*

[NeverTame]

So sorry to hear that. But, like the others have said, you haven't done anything wrong. *hugs*

[wheeloftime13]

thank you NeverTame... :) *hugs* it's nice to meet you...

[ReleaseTheEvil]

*Hugs* 

[csarmi]

*hugs*

[Theodora]

I am so sorry, Time but you did nothing wrong. Please don't blame yourself.

[Panchi]

*hugs*

 

It was no fault of yours. Even if you realized late, at least you realized. Maybe you had realized on a subconscious level but you weren't ready to believe it. But its nothing to blame yourself for.