What Scares You?

[Ryrin]

It doesn't have to be rational.

 

 

 

[Guest]

I am afraid of my family coming to harm, especially my siblings or son, and I am afraid of losing what freedom I have. Sort of afraid of my father but it is a gut reaction that I can't always control - even though I am afraid of him, I am terrified of him dying, since he has been what has driven me to try to be more than myself all my life. I am somewhat afraid of also automatically becoming head of the dearbhfhine - guess can call that "household" though it includes my siblings, my father and his siblings, and his father's generation - as my grandfather on his side is already dead, he doesn't have brothers, and so as the oldest son it would be all my responsibility. Otherwise all my other fears would qualify as cultural or superstition; I am not afraid of dying because I know there are worse things than that (like losing freedom), not afraid of violence because my past is full of it and I have high pain tolerance, not afraid of rape because I've survived it and I know I can survive it, not afraid of homelessness because I've been homeless before and it wasn't too bad. 

 

I guess in that way I am the opposite of most people - most people today are afraid of "practical" or evident fears, like being hurt or homeless or raped or dying, while not having much superstitions, while I am afraid of what others would call superstitions but not much practical. Guess that is probably what classical authors meant when they mentioned the Celtic maxim of "We fear nothing, except that the sky should fall on us" lol. I fear going over bridges because I am afraid they are going to fall, for not much reason besides heights and a bad conscience. I fear breaking my geasa, I fear being cursed or bringing down the wrath of something far beyond my power on my head, and I somewhat fear getting possessed and not coming back to myself again. Say somewhat because sometimes I wish it would happen, because it might be like dying except without hurting my family because they will have something there still that looks like me at least.

[LilyElizabeth]

I am afraid of dying from an asthma attack. Not being able to breathe is horrifying. 

 

I am afraid of one of my kids dying. Or my grandson. 

 

I have a few more fears, but I don't dwell on fears. Ever. 

[Ryrin]

I think that losing a child ( no matter what age) would be the absolute worst thing for me. I also fear medical conditions that resemble ALS, where my body totally doesn't work but my mind is fully intact. One the other hand, I also fear conditions like dementia. I have an elderly friend going though that now. I'm very claustrophobic too. I hate getting in the MRI and what could easily take an hour or less, takes half to a whole day because I require sedation.

[Illian Tear]

I'm sadly afraid of Spiders. Real or fake.

[Nynaeve]

Cockroaches 

[LilyElizabeth]

Snakes

[Tamcha]

Spiders as well. And Aliens, but only the ugly white ones with these hughe black eyes.

[Nynaeve]

I used to have nightmares about E.T and the Gremlins >.>

[Illian Tear]

I also used to be scared of the Gremlins. And Tremors.

[Adella]

Deep water. I have this somewhat irrational thought that if I can't see all the way to the bottom, then there is probably something huge swimming around that will eat me...

[Illian Tear]

I just suck at swimming and panic way too easily.

[Adella]

I can't swim either, but even if I'm on a boat, I still get really anxious when out on the water.

[Illian Tear]

Oh I'm fine on a boat, but it's actually being in the water when i freak out. Whether in a pool or lake, seeing the bottom or not, unless i can touch the bottom.

[Ryrin]

I'm afraid of bridges, snakes, and spiders too, since I was bit.

 

I love the water. I go way out in the middle of the lake. My husband once told my son (when he asked "how deep is it?") that it doesn't matter once it's over your head.