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[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

would be. australia should be around tho.

[Leelou]

Am I awake between 1- 4 on the slow days?

[Leelou]

I'm feeling a late nighter tonight.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i'm feeling a pass out hard at some undetermined point. but maybe not.

[Aiel Heart]

be careful cindy....

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

nah, bein stupid, generally am.

[Aiel Heart]

*sigh*

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i'll live to be stupid another day. odds on.

[Aiel Heart]

*nods absently*

[mmeeshal]

It is just one of those bipolar days.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

it's different. but we;ll go with that.

[mmeeshal]

I meant to say, that's how my emotions have been today. I don't know what to believe about my stupid brain anymore.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

oh. mines anxiety, helplessness, despair and such. not unusual. often bipolar, but this is different.

[mmeeshal]

I'm just so frustrated because I JUST got out of a major depression episode and now I'm all wacky. I saw a psychiatrist once and she said it sounded like I have Bipolar II, but then I was taking bipolar meds and they didn't help, and just taking melatonin every night seemed to make it all go away...except now it's back, and maybe I should just sell my liver to the drug companies because I'm not gonna have one if I take bipolar meds anyway.

 

I don't know. It's just really frustrating. No one ever figures out what's wrong with me, and not knowing is hard because how can I prepare when I don't know what to prepare for? If I knew I was gonna be this hyperactive and irritable, I would have avoided most social interaction if I could to spare myself and everyone else the annoyance.

 

Anyway, maybe we should try to cheer each other up.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i'm cheering down right now tbh. sounds quite thyroidy. and a lot like my younger years.

 

nothing worked. now i just use prns cause the dailies don;t work for me. it;s an axis 2 thing here mostly.

[mmeeshal]

I just had a thought that maybe it could be seasonal? I remember the first time I saw a psychiatrist for this it was about this time of year, last year, and over the sunny months I seemed to be just fine. Is this something that could be part of SAD?

 

Does it sound thyroidy? How so? My thyroid pretty much doesn't work anymore, hasn't for the past 11 years, so I take medicine to get my daily hormones.... Is it normal to kind of fluctuate at times like that?

[Aiel Heart]

I thought being drunk was supposed to make people happier

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

thyroids do that, very much. SAD is definitely possible.

 

and drunk doesn;t make people happy. it makes them drunk.

[mmeeshal]

I'm gonna have to google SAD and how to treat it.... XD Just in case. Winter's always a bad time for me, anymore. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

northern lights - give you the lumens to make up for the dark.

[mmeeshal]

Hmmm....light therapy might be something to consider, yeah. XD Man, I need to figure my next step out quick so I can find a job. XD I can't afford all this stuff I need, now....

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

light therapys what my psy MD suggested.

[mmeeshal]

Did you try it?

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

havent yet, will this winter

[mmeeshal]

I'm planning on trying it too, we'll have to keep each other posted on how it goes.

 

I hope it helps, Cindy. *hugs*