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[mmeeshal]

Yes, it is. I'm hoping to move in with my grandparents soon, but if I stay here I still would have quit my job and looked for another one. Fast food has taught me a lot and given me lots of friends, but I'm more than ready to move on.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

yeah, a month at arbys was more than enough for me. very happy for you. i still remember the smell of the grease ...

[mmeeshal]

With the exception of a 4-month period this year, I've worked at this same McDonald's since the beginning of November 2009. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

you've done more than your share.

[mmeeshal]

That's exactly how I feel!

 

I don't know what other job opportunities I'll have if I move up north to my grandparents' house, but I hope it's not fast food. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i'm sure you'll do well. and... yeah... food service good to avoid if possible.

[mmeeshal]

I'm up for almost anything, as long as it's part-time. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i always like tutoring best, quiet and good money. you've probably had enough babysitting... but temp agencies are really good, and they train you up free, which is a nice bonus. and usually the best place to find part time.

 

um, sorry, i overadvise. i be quiet now.

[mmeeshal]

Naw, advice is always cool. I can't think of everything on my own, so I always appreciate suggestions.

 

Definitely something for me to look into...

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

it's a good stop-gap until you're ready to career down. which... i avoided as long as posible myself.

[mmeeshal]

I have goals and ideas for what I want out of life, but really I'm just taking it as it comes. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

you're about twenty steps ahead of me. i still don't know what i want out of life. just know i have to keep going to work.

[mmeeshal]

See, I used to feel that way, and it drove me crazy. I was seriously questioning the point of being alive. So I had to figure out what I'm living for, and I feel much better now that I have an idea.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i do know what i'm living for. it's just the stuff i have to do in the mean time that confuzzles me.

[mmeeshal]

I guess, for me, knowing what I'm living for and knowing how to get there are pretty much dependent on one another.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

i'm living because god wants me to live, and i mean to go back to him. the stuff in the middle is where i get lost. but it all woks out how it's supposed to, so i'm not worried about it. one foot in front of the other and all.

[mmeeshal]

It's interesting to hear that, I guess, because I've always believed that God has a purpose for each of us as an individual, and He'll guide us to where we need to be. And we need to be ready for whatever He has in store for us, even if we don't know details.

 

I don't really believe in the idea of "callings" the way some people do; I believe the Lord uses us however He can. I do believe that we're each more suited to some things than others, though, and I guess for me it was a matter of realizing that my desires for my life and His desires for my life are almost on the same track. They're definitely both headed in the same direction, though.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

yup, pretty much. find out the why's when we get there maybe.

[mmeeshal]

Hmm... I was going to say that we know "why" more often than not, but that's not true. I guess some things are easier to figure out than others, but a lot of times, even if we guess, we don't *know* until after it's pretty much been explained.

 

I mean, I don't know the details of what I'm meant to do and why, but the general purpose? Yeah. I'm meant to be a mother and raise righteous children. I don't know when, I don't know what exactly that will entail at this point, I don't know if any of my kids are going to go on and change the world, but I know that the effect a good mother has on her children is reason enough to do it, and I'm particularly suited to the role of nurturing my family in the home. Even though I don't like housework all that much. >.>

 

But anyway.... I don't think I'm going to be able to make it to the reception. =/

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

it's alright. the reception, i mean. send your love.

 

i thought that was my purpose, the family thing... but apparently it wasn't. i can't second guess it. i have no doubt he has a purpose for everyone and everything.

[mmeeshal]

I told her I'd make it, but I have no way of getting there and I'm feeling really feverish. >.< I will have to send her a card or make up for it with a visit. XD

 

That's true....I've been promised that I will have a family if I keep doing the things I'm asked to do, but I don't know when, and that has actually been one of my biggest stumbling blocks. I have struggled to wrap my mind around the idea of patiently waiting for what the Lord has in store for me to come whenever it's right. XD

 

I don't know, but maybe you're in a position to touch the lives of people you otherwise wouldn't have even met.

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

maybe. and my friends' kids are very much like my own... but better.

 

can't force it anyway, just gotta go with what happens.

 

and ya, sounds like staying home is the best idea. sleep sounds good maybe, lots of sleep.

[mmeeshal]

I don't even know why I want kids, having seen first hand what brats they can be (my siblings). XD

 

Sleep, yeah... That sounds really good.... I just have to wait around till the obligatory 10 o'clock realization that there's no point waiting anymore. XD

[Mrs. Cindy Gill]

you heal best while you sleep. as much as you can, all day, all night. chicken soup is all well and good, but sleep heals.

[mmeeshal]

I need to eat, so that I can go to bed at a decent hour without getting indigestion or something (I dunno, doesn't happen to me, but then I usually don't go to bed right after I eat).... Only, it's 8 PM and dinner's not ready.

 

Also, I'm probably going to stay up till at least 10 anyway, because I'm waiting to talk to someone, and I'm hoping they'll show up....but if they haven't shown up by 10, they probably aren't going to, so then I know I'm free to go.... I have this down to a science. XD