I saw the psychiatrist today. He tweaked my meds, although he didn't exactly change them. He changed the times, and switched one to a timed release version. This should help me sleep better at night, which has been an issue. It also should keep a consistent blood level of the drug, which should mean less ups and downs throughout the day. We really hit it off and I look forward to this doc/patient relationship.
This evening, I got some clarity on something else that I've been searching for. I'm looking for my next passion - something to get really excited about. Apparently, I need to emotionally divorce myself from the one that I'm moving away from even more than I have. Okay, I haven't really. I've only said I want to. Today, I started really doing it. When there is room in my life and my heart for the next exciting thing, it will appear. I am very confident on that score.
It is my hope that watching the struggles and use of life tools by this mentally ill woman will benefit someone. There are so many of us out there, and some are so lost! I was one of them for a long time. Still am, in some ways.