I feel like I have been extra touchy lately. I'm too busy to be emotional, and I feel like I owe everyone an explanation why. Even more than that, I posted a LoA everywhere, but have still be around and didn't really tell anyone why. I figured I would just tell one group, but then I couldn't decide where to post it, and now I figure I might as well blog it.
For those of you that don't know, my husband is in the Marines. He is about to be Deployed to Afghanistan. This will be his first time there, but his third deployment. The first deployment was to Iraq while we were dating and the second to Japan after we first got married. I've done this ball game before. I knew what to expect. It doesn't change the fact that I am emotional.
I can't really give anyone any details, for the sake of security and all that, but I can say a few things. He isn't going over there to sit on the big base in A/C. Even Camp Leatherneck, which is a huge well known base, was recently attacked. No where in Afghanistan is safe. But, there are safer areas. Jon is not going there. He is an Ammunitions Technician, which basically means he orders ammo and makes sure everyone has what they need. If it goes boom, he makes sure it gets done. Part of this job is going to all of the various camps to count ammo and deliver. Going to various camps means driving. Driving in an area that is known for IEDs blowing up vehicles.
Even more than that, we aren't ready for this deployment. In the past, there was plenty of time to breathe and relax. This time around, they have been having training still, up till the end of last week. We had the ball over the weekend, and he has been at work every day so far this week. How can he be expected to pack and get his guys all packed when he is still working 16 hours a day? This has left me to fumble through packing his things, and while I am a good Marine Wife, I am not a Marine. It has left me rather stressed and frazzled.
So, this is why I am on LoA. I am still sort of here, but honestly, DM takes a back seat on a week like this. If I am on, I will take care of some things. I'll post. I'll hang out. But I can't promise anything. I know everyone loves and cares about me, but I really just need a few days to grieve. I hope to be back by the 8th, but really, who knows. My game plan at present is to close myself in with easy mac, hot dogs, oreos, and a crate of wine. When I reemerge from that, well, that'll be when I'm back.
As always, Leelou and Aiel Heart can get hold of me. I swear, I don't know what I would do without them some days. It doesn't matter the distance, I know they love me and care and will take care of me. Other friends have been holding my hand as well, and I thank all of you for being so patient with me.
Welp, I guess that's it then.
- Christine -